Fuck....... Grrrrr....... Arrgghhhhh......

This post may be a little raw but I need to get this stuff off my chest. I am sooo mad right now. SO MAD! And hurt and upset and disappointed and deflated and miserable but still mad and a little bit more heartbroken....

FUN!!

On Saturday my parents came over and took me and the little ones to Cholderton Farm Park. The weather wasn't looking too promising but there were some encouraging bursts of sunshine so, we went for it! 

Buttercup

PND for Men - It's Serious!

I have been thinking about my husband tonight and wondering how many other guys out there are suffering unknowingly with Post Natal Depression? I thought I would read up a bit about it and see how common it is and whether the symptoms/treatments are much different for men and women.

Marvelous Mug Swap!

I am so glad to say, I have joined in with the mug swap again this year with the ever lovely Hannah from Cupcake Mumma. I did my first ever swap with Hannah last year which was the start of a wonderful friendship and a love of swaps for me. You can read about that swap here. Being that I love buying gifts for people and being hosted by my lovely friend, how could I resist?!

A Wake Up Call

Today the penny dropped. After being caught up in taking care of everyone and making sure they are all ok, the reality of our situation has hit home. HARD. It is amazing how engrossed you can be in something and not fully realise what is actually happening. I am seeing things painfully clearly now.

Pure Joy...

I thought I would share something exceedingly cute for a change. 

My blog may have some heavy posts at the moment but I never stop appreciating all the special things I am blessed with. This is one of my gorgeous special blessings. 

Emotional Wreck

Here I sit at the head of the table. All I can hear is the clock ticking, the dog gently snoring and the occasional rustle of the Haribo bag. The babies are asleep, curled up in their little beds. Big is sleeping over at his friends house. My husband....? He's gone

Spam Anyone?

Ok HELP!! How do I stop getting so many spam comments on my posts? Does anyone know? Is this an android thing or a real person doing it? Do we have a setting somewhere on blogger that stops the false meats getting through? Any help gratefully recieved! :o) xx

Confused....

This is going to sound a bit odd after my last post but no two days are the same at the moment. I think it will go some way to explaining the rather conflicted state I am in at the moment.

Broken

Broken. 

That's how I feel. 

Broken and exhausted. 

Sleep has turned into an unsatisfying passing of time. 

The world has lost it's shine. 

The sun is not as bright as it used to be

All the colours have faded 

The world weighs heavily on my shoulders

My knees are starting to buckle.

Please....

Not much longer

I can't do this for much longer

My Room

I know it's been a few days since I last checked in but things have been crazy at work. I have been running the deli counter (which I know very little about) and also overseeing the shop. It's hard work for a newbie like me! I am soooo glad I only have another week of it to go before I can return to my normal duties. Pheeeeuuuuwwww!!